Sex... love... uh oh's

No Worries

Just something you all should know about me... people give me advice, I smile & nod, and say "I know, you're right." Which I totally mean, BUT... I very rarely act on it. So yes, I know none of these guys are right for me, but do you really think I'm going to do anything about it right now? That would mean I would have to start completely fresh, and probably wouldn't get laid for weeks... or even months!!! No fuckin way. I'm not being abused by any of these guys, I'm not in any danger with any of them, so I'm just going to let things be right now. I'm going to quit worrying about who's Mr. Right and enjoy them all as Mr. Right Now. When Mr. Right comes, I'll know. So, thanks again for the great advice, but don't count on me acting on it just yet. ; ) I'm off to my couch to watch My Baby's Daddy, and chill for the entire day. Hasta!

posted by EIizabeth @ 10:26 AM 0 Comments

Friday

First I want to thank all of you for your advice. It's definitely given me a lot to think about. I told Mama's Boy a couple days ago that I would never be with him again. He wanted to know why I wouldn't at least give him a shot, and swears that he's changed. After I told him no several times, he finally said that he didn't believe it was because I didn't want to be with him, but it was just that I don't want to give up the single life. Which is kind of true, well part of it... I really don't want to be with him, but at the same time it is really difficult giving up the single life. There was a long time there, especially when I was with Mama's Boy that I needed someone, I was very co-dependant. Now I'm the complete opposite. I feel like someone else just gets in my way. I was 22 when Mama's Boy and I broke up after 2 years of being together, he found a 17 year old girlfriend the following week, my parents got divorced at the same time, I had a lot of health problems, I hated my job, had a piece of sh!t car, and I was living with my chain-smoking, depressed, dad and sister in a 2 bedroom apartment. Needless to say I was a mental disaster, and on anti-depressants. The one thing I needed was Mama's Boy to come back and help me through all of this, instead he would call me and tell me all about his new teenage girlfriend. That's when I said ok, time for me to get away from all of this and take care of me. That's when I picked up and moved myself to California... alone. I've built myself back up, and am more independent and now than I've ever been. But, the way I was raised, there's a timeline, and I'm running behind. I'm under a lot of pressure to have a career, buy a house, be married, have a family... so my mind is telling me, ok, which one of these guys can you marry so you can get back on the timeline? But my heart is saying, ummm yeah, it's not time for you to get married, or have a family, you're 24! This is fun time! Jesus, my older sister already has my wedding planned! She told me last weekend "all I need is the groom's name, and you're set!" She was joking of course, but all my family & friends love to drop those little hints. I'm not going to worry about tomorrow though, I'm going to live for today and just take each day as it comes. I'm having fun, and am perfectly content with the way things are right now.
Sorry for the therapy session, I hope this is the end of it. This is not the purpose of this blog. Anyway... I'm not doing sh!t this weekend, I'm sleeping and watching movies. Patterson will be in the bay area for the weekend, so I'm going to enjoy the peace and quiet. I still have to think of an excuse to give to First. It shouldn't be hard.

posted by EIizabeth @ 4:03 PM 1 Comments

Another Day...

Can I BE any more confused??? This guy situation is killin me. Really. Ok... Mama's Boy, forget about it. No way. Cop, he's married, but even if it wasn't... no way, never never never. First, he's married, and even though I would honestly love to hook up with him... I can't. I'm going to make some excuse to why I can't see him on Saturday to avoid the situation altogether. So he's out. Fireman, divorced, lives back home (1300 miles away), and even though he's absolutely gorgeous, AND a fireman... I just can't do it. Besides the distance thing, he just drinks way too much. Nobody ever takes him seriously. So he's out. FBI, divorced and very bitter on relationships. He's absolutely my dream guy though. He called me today at work to say hi, and see how my trip back home went. I told him all about it, and he asked me if Fireman hit on me. I told him yes and that I told him to go to bed. He laughed. I just wish he didn't have this bitterness about relationships. So, unfortunately, he's out. Army, single, never been married, in Iraq... and is stationed out of Germany. I would love for something to happen with him, but geographically speaking... it just can't work. He wants to be career army, and I don't think I can drop everything to be an army wife. So he's out. Then there's Patterson, there are so many good things about him, and at the same time so many things that make me want to choke him. He's honest, loyal, thoughtful, caring, understanding, patient, generous, and great in bed... which are all very important, and hard to find qualities. However, he nags, doesnt like sports, has NO interest in current events or anything that goes on in the world, has bad table manners, complains about his food every single time we go out to eat, always laughs loudly at the most serious parts of movies, needs attention all the time, and I'm not very physically attracted to him... I'm going to stop there. Are these things that I should overlook because he has all the other good qualities??? Am I settling for less than I deserve??? I know I'm never going to find someone that's perfect, but I want someone that's perfect for me. Is he it??? How do I know???

posted by EIizabeth @ 1:24 PM 8 Comments

Game

Here's a game from esox:

Who's better for you. If you had to kill one, marry one and just have sex with one, which would they be? The choices are :Patterson, FBI, Fireman.

I would marry FBI, have sex with Fireman, and kill Patterson.

Question two. Who would you rather be with, Fireman or FBI? the winner of those two vs. cop. What do ya got?

I would rather be with FBI.

FBI vs. Cop? Definitely FBI!

There's more...but let's just concentrate on that for now.

Sweet! This is interesting ; ) Thanks!

I saw that coming from a mile away. I would love to be with FBI, however, he got divorced about 2 years ago, and is in no way interested in anything serious with anyone. He's very bitter on relationships right now. He actually said one time "It took me 8 years to propose the first time, I won't do it again for at least another 40." He's very career oriented, and not really interested in anything other than casual dating/sex. Which is fine with me ; )

posted by EIizabeth @ 10:59 AM 5 Comments

Update

Ok, per esox luscious's request, I'm re-posting a guide to the people I talk about in this thing. So esox... here ya go ; )

Patterson: my kind of... boyfriend??? He's 26, very good looking, fresh out of the army, and treats me like a Queen. However, there are some things about us that just don't click. He doesn't like football, he loves to talk when I'm trying to sleep, and can be way too affectionate at times. Basically... I feel like the man in the relationship. But the sex is grrrrrrreat!

FBI: He's 33, has been in the FBI for like 6 years, and HOT HOT HOT! I've known him since I was born because he's been a friend of the family since he was like 10. I started sleeping with him a year and a half ago on my 23rd birthday. Being that he's two of my brothers' best friend they weren't entirely happy about it at first, but they got over it. The sex really isn't good, but the fact that he is in the FBI makes up for it.

Fireman: He's also 33, a Fireman, and HOT as fire! ; ) No, really, he's gorgeous! He's also my brother's (as well as FBI's) best friend. The thing is, I slept with him like two or three times three years ago. He and his wife were on again, off again, so they were on again for the last time when I moved away. When I was back in town the last time he tried to get some, even though I REALLY wanted to, I think I'll stick to FBI for those benefits.

Cop: He's 26, met him in High School, and was my best friend for 8 years. He and his wife separated and we became roommates, which quickly led to the demise of our friendship. When he and his wife got back together, she did her best to get between us, and she did. We had a huge blow out and were never going to talk again, then he called one day out of the blue apologizing and saying how much he loves and misses me. I'm not ready to forgive him completely, but I'm open minded about it.

First: He's 24, and my very first boyfriend ever. We met in elementary school and he was my 5th grade "boyfriend", whatever that means. I went to a different middle school, then we went to the same HS. We were acquaintances in HS, then the summer after our Senior year we were at a party and had sex. Come to find out, 6 years later, that it was his first time. We e-mail and flirt every day, and he's coming to visit this weekend.

Mama's Boy: He's 24, and my ex that I was with for 2 years. When we broke up he got with this 17 year old girl, and was with her on and off for the next 2 years. Every time they break up he calls me telling me how much he loves me, and he only got with her to fill the void that I left. We live 1300 miles apart and he's constantly asking me to give us another chance. Riiiiiiiiiiiiight.

Army: He's 23, in the army stationed in Samarra, Iraq right now. I love this guy to death. He is the most loyal friend I could possibly ask for. There's nothing I wouldn't do for him, or that he wouldn't do for me. I would love the chance to have something more with him, but realistically, it just won't happen. He's the only guy in this list I haven't had sex with.

I think those are all the main ones for now, I'll add to it if I remember any more.

posted by EIizabeth @ 9:39 AM 1 Comments

My trip home

My trip home was really good, I was sad that I had to come back. Thursday night I got in at like 11pm and my friend's (we'll call her Hawaii) fiance picked me up from the airport. From there we went to this bar and played pool for a while, then to a strip club for about an hour. I was tired by then, so he took me home and tried (unsuccessfully) to kiss me when he was dropping me off. What a dickhead. He blamed it on the alcohol, and I went inside. The next day, I went shopping for wedding dresses with Hawaii, and then we picked up my sister and her fiance and went to the state fair. It was a pretty mellow night after that, went to my nephew's football practice then had dinner with the family. Saturday morning we got up early for my nephew's football game, at which my niece was also a cheerleader. I hung out with my sister all day, we went to lunch at hooters with my brother in law, then had a birthday party for my niece and nephew that night. Well... that is where things get interesting. Fireman walks in (looking hot as ever) with this cute girl. I was like hmm must be his new girlfriend. She was very sweet. It turns out she is his partner in the fire department, and nothing more. So, after a while he comes up to me and was like "Hey, did you meet FBI's girlfriend?" I was like "who's his girlfriend?" He said that it's the girl he brought with him. I was like "oh yeah, she's really sweet." Then he just kept going on and on about how FBI totally likes her, and she's the one for him... blah blah blah. I thought it was kind of weird that he went on and on about it, but was like whatever. So, as the night went on, he was getting a little closer and a little more touchy feely with me. Then it dawned on me... He knows about FBI and I, and he was trying to cock block FBI by saying he has this new girlfriend so that he could get me to hook up with him. UGH! What a bastard, but he's so freakin hot! So let's fast forward to 2am, everyone's gone and i'm helping my sister clean up the kitchen and Fireman is standing in there with us. My sister says goodnight looks at me and says "Don't act innocent, I know exactly what you're doing." I didn't say anything and she went to bed. So Fireman and I sat on the couch and started talking then his phone rings, and guess who it is! FBI! Fireman goes "Dude, you're kind of interrupting something. I'm trying to hit on Elizabeth." I was like aww crap! So, FBI tells him to put me on the phone. I get on and he's like "Hey! How are you?" all that small talk garbage, that sure enough led up to "So what's going on with you and Fireman?" I told him "Nothing." He was like "really? you sure?" Again I said, "Yes, Nothing." Then I was like "So, I met your girlfriend tonight. She's cute, and really sweet." He was like what?? what girlfriend??? I told him what Fireman said and he got kinda pissed he was like "Ugh, she's not my girlfriend. I've never even kissed her! Tell Fireman to shut the f*ck up." I started cracking up and told him that Fireman's been telling everyone that this girl is the one for him. Then he made me put Fireman back on the phone. They got off a second later, and Fireman was like "So, FBI talks about you a lot." I asked what he says and he wouldn't tell me. Then, he leans in and kisses me. Have I mentioned how freakin hot he is??? Lord! Then he asks me to go up to his apartment with him. I was still pissed about his lying and cock block attempt, so I said no, that we should both get some sleep and that I would walk him out. He kissed me several more times, and tried his best to change my mind but I stood strong and he left. The next day he came over for breakfast, and it was a little awkward, but we got over it. I watched Football with my brothers all day on Sunday (Did you see Carolina beat KC??? And the Bears did a phenomenal job as well ; ) ) Then yesterday I hung out with my sister and came home last night. I was kinda depressed because I didn't want to come home, so when Patterson picked me up from the airport I didn't really feel like talking. He, however, was a motor mouth. I went to bed kind of early and I think he was bugged about that. I was asleep and woke up to him kissing my neck and rubbing all over my body, so I turned over and gave him some so I could go to sleep again without him bugging me. I couldn't really get into it, I had my mind on too many other things so it wasn't one of our best times, but whatever. That's about it for now. I have more to say... but this post is too long already. See ya!

posted by EIizabeth @ 2:05 PM 1 Comments

I'm all woman ; )

First things First... in response to M.N.'s comment last week... no, I am definitely not a guy. I grew up with 3 older brothers, and was quite the tom boy growing up. If I didn't want to watch football (or any other sport) on TV, then I didn't get to watch TV. So I learned to love it at a very young age. About the Jenna Jameson book, I'm going to be very honest... I'm a woman, and I like porn. I like strip clubs. And I love sex. Most women either don't like these things, or if they do they won't admit it. My sister always makes fun of me because I can't seem to find a guy who likes both strip clubs and football. It's always either one or the other, or even none of the above. Also, like I said in one of my previous posts, I love a good autobiography. Which this one really is. So... there ya go.

posted by EIizabeth @ 9:39 AM 1 Comments