Sex... love... uh oh's

He's Back

Patterson called last night, and apologized like 293847923784 times for not being able to call. He said he went camping over night in this canyon with his Uncle and cousin, and didn't know he wouldn't have cell phone service there or else he would've called and warned me. So anyway... everything was fine. He's driving up here again tomorrow to spend a few days before I take my trip back home. My brother has been really bugging me to visit him at his new house, and see his new puppy, so I think I'm going to ask Patterson if he wants to go with me on Sunday maybe. Meeting my brothers is a pretty big deal, I definitely don't just introduce anyone to them. But I figure I'd rather them meet him now so they know him when I move down there closer to them in November. I'm nervous to see what they think of him. We'll see I guess. I guess that's about it for now. Have a good weekend!

posted by EIizabeth @ 3:46 PM 0 Comments

Hmmmm

Ok, this is weird. I haven't heard from Patterson in a day and a half. He called me the night before last and we talked for a long time. It was a really good talk, not serious, just good. Just about how our day was and school and army stuff he's dealing with. I tried calling him twice yesterday, and never got a hold of him, then tried again once today and still nothing. I just hope everything's ok, because this isn't like him. Usually he's called and/or IM'd me several times by this time every day. His grandma and uncle that live just a few houses from him are in really bad health and have been in and out of the hospital quite a bit. So I hope they're ok. It's weird how the tables turn, and now I want him to call me? haha! So... we'll see what happens. Like I said, I just hope everything's ok.

Mama's boy called me a few times yesterday, but I just let it go to voicemail. He's really starting to bug me. He just wants attention all the time. The last time we talked he was telling me how his infant nephew may have viral meningitis, and instead of letting me be concerned with the baby or the parents, he wanted all the sympathy for himself "the poor uncle who has to deal with the stress of his nephew being sick". What a dick.

First is now up by 18 points in our game. I'm getting killed basically. But, since I realized how much I like Patterson, I'm just not really into the game anymore. He's supposed to come up here for his brother's surprise party 2 weeks from today. So I'll see how things are going with Patterson before I tell First exactly what kind of visit we can have. Dinner, or dessert. haha!

posted by EIizabeth @ 11:42 AM 0 Comments

Lots of thinking

Ok, it's Monday... a week from my last post, and boy have things changed. I really don't know what to do. As you read in my last post, Patterson was here all week. The first few days were hard. Very, very hard. He was so clingy, and affectionate and it was driving me absolutely insane. But, then... i started to think a lot. I was like wow, this is what I thought I wanted, why am I freaking out? So, for the next several days I did a lot of soul searching. I was like ok, I have what I've been asking for right in front of me, he's nice, he's a gentleman, he makes me laugh, he's understanding, and complimentary, he's caring, and patient, and he likes me for ME. I don't have to pretend I'm something I'm not when I'm around him. And I'm such an asshole that I complained about him paying too much attention to me, and giving me too much affection. Someone smack me! God! So, like I said... I did a lot of thinking and realized what an idiot I was being. That instead of enjoying what a good person he is, I automatically started trying to find flaws in him because I'm so used to going out with dickheads. So... this past Saturday, I finally realized how stupid I was being and opened my eyes to how lucky I am. Then I was the one who was attached to his hip! haha!!! Go figure. So we watched movies and hung out all day, then Saturday night in the middle of one of the movies, he was sitting on the floor leaning back on the couch, and I was lying on the couch. I started kissing his neck (keep in mind I had put NO effort into giving him any kind of physical affection all week), then I got down on the floor in front of him and started kissing him, i turned around, turned off the tv and kept kissing him. Then I started sucking on his finger, still with my face just a few inches from his and looking him right in his eyes. His chin just dropped as he stared at me. Then I worked my way down... all the way down, and gave, what I believe, was my best performance to date. I spent about 15 minutes down there, then I just got up and said "You can turn the movie back on if you want. I'm going to bed. G'night" and went in my room. He just goes "Wait... what? What do you mean? Hey! Where are you going?" By the time he got in my room I was lying naked on the bed. We had sex in many positions, then finished it off in the 69. I swallowed (which I've done for a very select few), then rubbed the tip with my thumb and he went crazy. It was awesome. After a few minutes, when he was actually able to speak again, he asked what came over me. I told him I just wanted to thank him, and show him that I do appreciate him. It was a good night. Now he's gone and I miss him already. We're still not together, just because I he is so awesome, and I can be such an idiot... so I want to make 100% sure I can commit myself to him before I do it. The last thing I want to do is hurt him, so I'm being very careful to avoid doing that. He sure came out of no where and hit me like a ton of bricks! Oy vey!

posted by EIizabeth @ 5:23 PM 1 Comments