Time for some whine
I'm going to bitch and whine in this post, if you dont want to hear it, dont read it.
So, today was day number 3 that I've been sick in bed all day. This isn't one of those "don't want to do anything so I'll fake sick" things, I'm actually very sick with a really bad cold that's just kicking my ass. I'm pretty annoying when I'm sick in the first place, but when I'm sick and bored... look out. I don't have cable or even basic cable in my room, so all I can watch are DVDs, and I've watched everything I have. I have a Gameboy but the only game I have is Tetris, and I'm over it. I'm in the middle of the book
Forever Amber, but can't find it. With that said, obviously I'm fucking bored! This is one of those colds where you just feel miserable in every way, and sleep is one of those things you've heard about, but there's no chance you're getting any. So I lie in bed all day and night tossing and turning, no appetite, nothing to do, and feel like shit. I'm sure you're asking yourself, "why don't you move to the couch and watch TV?" I'll tell you why. My brother has made it very clear he doesn't want me out of that room for fear he'll get sick. I would somewhat understand this fucked up request if he had a job he has to report to every day, but he's a work from home sales guy. He never leaves! So, for the last 72 hours that we've been under the same roof, I've seen him three times. Who cares? you ask? I do. It's not like I want to spend quality time with him, but in the last 72 hours he hasn't peeked his head in my room once to say "How are you? Can I get you anything? Are you hungry? Thirsty? Want some Nyquil?" Nothing. My brother Paul called me last night and as soon as he heard that I was sick, he asked what he could do for me, or bring me. So I asked him for some Orange Juice. He was here with a gallon within a half hour. Now that's a good brother. I came out to get some while he was here, and Jeff goes "What are you doing? Get away from me. I swear to god if I get sick I'll fuckin kill you." Hmmm. Thanks bro. You fuck! So, that was one of the 3 times I've seen him. Another was when he came home tonight and I was walking to the bathroom to get some Nyquil and he says "Why is Jake (the dog) in his crate? You're up and you didn't let him out??? Jesus Christ!" Nevermind the fact he was in his crate because they decided to go out to dinner, if it mattered that much, they shouldn't have gone! And for time #3 that I've seen my lovely brother was the day before yesterday, my first day sick in bed. He called me (knowing I'm sicker than shit) and says that he had to drop my sister in law's car off to be worked on and needs a ride, so I need to get up, and take Jake with me to pick up my brother, then take both of them to the Vet because poor little Jakey's eyes have been red for a couple days so he needs to go to the Doctor. Hmmm. Ok, so, I am sick and have a temperature of 102.5, but I need to get out of bed, take the stupid ass dog out
in the rain, pick up my brother and take them to the vet so the dog can get eye ointment for his red eyes (which the Vet said was allergies. Poor Jake.) And still, never once did I even get a "How are you feeling?" from my bastard ass brother, or his wife for that matter. Fuck em both. I swear to god I'm going to shoot him in his ass with his new bb gun. How hard is it to be nice to someone when they're sick? You know they already feel like crap, is it that fuckin difficult to hold off on being a dick for a few days until they're better? There's nothing worse than being sick, and being treated like shit at the same time. I'm going back to bed.
Wine, dine, and porn me
Being that I'm sick, today was kind of a long day. I have a hacking cough, and no voice. Not so fun. So I'm laying down tonight and I get a text message from
Marine, it says "Wanna cum watch porn with me?" Ummmm what the...? So I reply with "Haha!" We make some text message small talk, then he says "I'm waiting for a response." I told him "sure, i'll bring the popcorn", to which he replies "I'm looking for a serious response". I responded with "Haha!" again. He goes "C'mon, what do you say? No strings attached." Yeah, you idiot, because that's exactly what I want is random sex. Jesus! So I tell him I'm not a no strings attached kind of girl and he says "How about friends with benefits?" Negative. So then he says, "how bout you just come over and I'll cook you dinner then?" I didn't respond so he called me. It went something like this: (this is the cliff notes version because the conversation was 45 minutes long)
Marine: Sooooo, what do you say? Can I make you dinner?
Me: That's sweet but tonight's just not good, I'm sick.
Marine: Well I can take care of you.
Me: Yeah right.
Marine: I'm serious, I got everything you could need.
Me: Yeah? And what's that?
Marine: All you need to do is grab your toothbrush and drive over here. I'll make you dinner, you need to eat. You don't even have to pack PJ's, you can wear some of mine. I have soft pillows and blankets. Lots of medicines. I'll pour you some wine.
Me: But it's an hour and a half drive!
Marine: Well you would stay here of course, so you don't have to worry about driving home tonight. You can sleep in my bed, I don't bite. And I'll put a muzzle on you, because I know you do. haha! Just kidding, I'll even sleep somewhere else if you don't want me in bed with you. My bed is really comfy.
Me: I don't know...
Marine: What are you going to do in the next hour and a half?
Me: Probably take a warm bath.
Marine: I got a bath tub, a nice one. I even have a rubber ducky, Mr. Bubble, all the necessities.
Me: Tempting, but don't think so. I'm a whiney brat when I'm sick, not to mention high maintenance.
Marine: Like I said, I'll take care of you.
Me: Why now? Why all of a sudden?
Marine: Because I want to see you, is that ok?
Me: It's just weird.
Marine: So is that a yes?
Me: No.
Marine: Too late, I've already started making your dinner. Get on the road.
Me: Sorry, but not tonight. Not while I'm sick.
Marine: Ugh fine.
Me: It's sweet of you to offer though.
Marine: Come on, it will be fun. I promise. No funny business, just hanging out.
Me: Not tonight.
Marine: Ok ok, well I'm going to finish cooking here. I hope you feel better.
So that was the end of that, then he sends me a text message later that just says "Brat." I tell him that I saved him from spending the night with a sick whiney brat. He goes "Ok you win. Some other night then?" I said "Sure." Then he asked when and I told him it was up to him. He goes "Ok, Saturday night. No dinner though. Just dessert." I was like damn! Now you won't cook me dinner? he goes nope, you had your chance tonight. I told him I think I'm going to be sick for a very long time then. He laughed and said goodnight.
Ok so... where the FUCK is this coming from? I'm too tired, and sick to contemplate this right now... but I know it's going to bug me tomorrow.
Jamie's Quiz
3 names you go by: Elizabeth, Betsy (HATE IT!), B
3 screen names you have: Elizabeth, Oh Elizabeth, jus_some_gurl
3 things you like about yourself: Sense of humor, Open mind, patience
3 things you hate/dislike about yourself: Too emotional, too shy, very stubborn
3 parts of your heritage: Mexican, Spanish, Irish
3 things that scare you: Bugs, stairs, parking lots at night
3 of your everyday essentials: Caffeine, reality tv, laughter
3 things you're wearing right now: Sweats, sweatshirt, N/A
3 of your favorite bands/artists (today): Tim McGraw, Mario, Kelly Clarkson
3 of your favorite songs at present: Let me Love You (Mario) / Over and Over (Nelly & Tim McGraw) / Toy Soldiers (Eminem)
3 new things you want to try in the next 12 months: re-building relationships with my parents, being fearless, being independent again
3 things you want in a relationship (love is a given): honesty, trust, respect
2 truths and a lie:(no particular order to keep ya guessing) I'm 5'7, I love scary movies, I always turn my head when I laugh
3 physical things about a love interest that appeal: Eyes, arms, black hair
3 things you just can't do: go somewhere alone at night, touch a bug, argue
3 of your favorite hobbies: going on walks, reading, watching movies
3 things you want to do really badly right now: sleep, go to disneyland, win the lottery
3 careers you're considering: social worker, counselor, juvenile probation officer
3 places you want to go on vacation: Disneyland, DisneyWorld, Hawaii
3 kids names (either boy or girl): Jayden, Estevan, Anthony
things you want to do before you die: get married, have kids, sky dive
3 people who have to take this quiz now: All of you!
Just another day
I don't really have anything new or exciting to talk about today. I woke up sick this morning, it's the same thing my sister has. Headache, body aches, laryngitis, low grade fever, it's tolerable but still not very fun. My brother and sister in law decided to start
Body for Life, so I figured it couldn't hurt for me to do it and the exercise would probably feel good. They have their goals to lose 20 or 30 lbs or whatever, I just want to have more energy. I'm thinking about pulling about my Pilates dvd again. Ouch!
My brother is still being really cool (knock on wood). Last night the 3 of us played cards for a while, it was fun even though he's a cheating bastard. ;) Mama's boy called me the a couple days ago, so I sent him a text message asking him what's up. He said he had been trying to call and wanted to know why I wouldn't answer. I told him I was busy. He said he was thinking of me and missed me. I think he's full of shit and playing his little mind games again. He IM'd me today trying to make me feel bad for leaving NM without saying bye to him. I said I have bigger things to worry about right now than his games, and he didn't say another word. What he wants is to keep me at bay so that way when he has problems with Jailbait, he knows he can come to me and I will want him. Sorry, those days are over. Patterson is also online today, but hasn't said a word to me. I don't blame him. I'm still trying to find somewhere to go for counseling. It's not as easy as I thought it would be. I definitely don't want to call some hotline, I want someone I can sit and talk with face to face. So my hunt goes on. Well, time for me to go find some Vitamin C. See ya!
Knock on wood
After I wrote my last post, I packed all my stuff and laid down to get a few hours of sleep. I was totally dreading the morning because I didn't want to get on that plane. What I wanted to do was go upstairs and sleep next to my sister. (My brother in-law and the kids slept downstairs that night) She just puts off these vibes that make me feel so safe, and so good when I'm around her. I knew I would feel better if I went and slept next to her, but I also knew I would probably cry up there and I didn't want to wake her up. So I finally fell asleep then woke up at 8am to get ready. I kept trying to delay but finally when my brother and sister in law were waiting in the car for me I realized this was it, I had to say goodbye. I, of course, started crying and my sister just hugged me and said
"Heyyyy, don't cy. (yes she said cry without the R, long story) You're going to be just fine. You're strong, smart, and beautiful and nobody can take any of that from you. I'm always here for you whenever you need me. I love you so much!" I really think God sent her into our family as an angel. I have NO idea what I'd do without her. So, after that I got in the car with my red swollen eyes and we left. I tried to hide my tears from my brother but when my sister in law asked me a question and I didn't answer they both looked back at me and my brother tells her to give me a tissue. I thought he would tell me to suck it up, that I was being stupid, or quit being such a baby... but he was totally understanding. He was SO nice the entire rest of the day. I mean, he was really going out of his way to be nice to me. This just doesn't happen with him, ever. Which makes me wonder if Serena or my brother Paul had a talk with him about me. I figured it would be short lived so I was enjoying it while it lasted. He was nice like that the entire day and night yesterday. After we picked up their dog (Jake), and we were in the car he tells him "Now Jake, you have to show your Auntie lots of love, and cuddle her ok? She's sad and she needs you. So that means no biting fucker!" It was so funny. Last night they took my cousin to dinner at a really upscale steak place here and invited me, but I decided to stay home. He told me feel free to order a pay per view and light a fire if I wanted. These may be really simple things, but they aren't things he ever just offers. This morning, well, actually around noon he and Jake woke me up after Jake had just had a bath. He said in his Jake voice "C'mon Auntie! I'm ready to play!" So I got up to play with him for a while, then we all went to see Meet the Fockers and to dinner. Tonight, he came in my room and asked if I'm ready to get my ass whooped at Playstation 2. So we played for about an hour and never fought once, which is unheard of! I don't know what this is all about, but I love it.
