Sex... love... uh oh's

I can't believe it!

Get this! Patterson said he would call me tonight, and he didn't! Can you believe it! I sure can't. I mean, when he says he'll do something, he does it. This is such a shock! Riiiiiiiiiiiiight. Miss P, I'm about as surprised as you are that he didn't call. The fucker. I know EXACTLY what he'll say too. "I was playing Everquest till late and decided just to stay at my Grandpa's house, and never got my charger from my aunt's house." I tried to call him once when I was sitting at the train station, waiting for my train, but sure enough his phone was dead. While we're on the subject of the train... what a fuckin nightmare! Today I was supposed to take the 5:40 train back home from San Jose. It takes 3 hours to get here, so that would've put me here about 9:00. Well, my brother and I went to see Friday Night Lights today, and I missed the train because of it. So, we went to dinner and I was going to catch the 7:40 train, which would put me here at about 11:00. I got to the train station at 7:30, and waited at Track 4, just like the lady told me to. Well, pretty soon it's 7:45 and this vietnamese lady comes up and asks if I'm going to Sacramento, and if I know where the train is. Turns out the stupid bitch that wrote Track 4 on my ticket was wrong, the train came and left from Track 1. So I missed it AGAIN. I don't know how often any of you take the train, but the train station isn't somewhere you want to hang out. Especially at night. Especially if you're a girl, by yourself! If any of you have seen the movie Adventures in Babysitting, I can relate. Anyway... so I had to sit there and wait for the next train that was supposed to leave at 8:40, and it showed up at 9:15. So I just got home about 15 minutes ago, at 1:15, and have to be out of the house in the morning at 6:30 to go to work. To top it off, I didn't even get to meet the girl I might move in with, or see the house because my brother was in a bad mood and said "I don't want to see her, I see her all day at work." So he wouldn't take me to meet up with her and see the house. I called her tonight, and had to tell her I couldn't make it, which totally made me sound like a flake and she goes "well, I would like to meet you before we set anything in stone, and I do have some other people that are interested, so do you think you could come next weekend?" Now I have to try to get out there again next weekend, instead of starting to pack because my brother decided to be a dick! I can't believe how fuckin stressed I am. I have so much to do in order to move in 3 weeks, I don't have nearly enough money as I'll need in order to make the move, I don't have a job lined up yet, I have a half ass boyfriend that offers no support when he's not here, this on top of the normal every day stress with work and everything else. I swear to God I'm going to lose it. My brother and his gf were telling me I need to find a stress outlet. All I really want to do is punch someone, just knock them the fuck out, or go to the shooting range, but that costs money that I don't have. Ok... I'm going to shut up. Goodnight.

posted by EIizabeth @ 1:22 AM